Fuck you.

I wonder why. Why you just don't try to understand. You made me break down, made it worse when I was going through the hardest part of my life. You're my mom yet you never tried to understand. You told me, to inform you when I had a boyfriend. End up, you tried tearing us apart. And now you're saying if I had one and didn't tell you, I'm stupid. In what way I'm stupid? I'm trying so hard to protect my heart. You think you are protecting me. You think everything you have done for me is good. Yes I love you and I know you do too, but that doesn't mean everything you did is correct. Don't you dare come telling me that I should never blame you cuz I brought it upon myself. If you didn't try anything that cruel, everything would have been fine. You torture me, screw me. What else you want? I love you, but for this, I'll never forgive you, never.

Brand new life.

I'm back to blogging. Rough year, gosh. Finally the exams are over. But it seems so normal. Prom night is over. Even Joan's party. And I won't be able to join my mates netball camp, i hate it. I really wish to work next week but the ladyboss seems, uhm, desperate. Yeah desperate is a good word. Hah. I hope to get braces really soon. I totally need that plastic surgery on my teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeth.

I don't take shits from you. You didn't have any rights to scold me cuz I was helping with everything. The only reason I didn't snap is I don't really want to fight with such a bitch like you.

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Oooh, geeky.

Yesterday was first day of school in term 3. Teacher was funny saying we should embrace our inner nerds, hahahaha. School is good and bad. Good cuz' I'm able to go back school again, instead of slackinggggg off. Bad cuz', I CAN'T WAKE UP.

And there was a talk about school attire, reporting time and blahblahblah. And all was changed to earlier, dammit. Due to that I was late today. What? I reached at 730. But still was late, #$^%$&@.

Guess what, so many people were late i think there were about four to five classes of people. Shitty reporting time. Bah.

And Syafiq was superrrr evil, he made me cry :( He actually took a dead cockroach and let it hang infront of my face. I screamed and run like hell, even tripped, but didn't fall(it would be worse if i did). Then, well, i started crying, then laughed -.-

And some of my classmates saw that scene, majority are guys. How embarrassing can that be man.. They were laughing, ahhhhhh. I guess I should be crashing on my pillow really soooooon. Super tired! Have a nice day, or night.

Stop being so serious, please.

2010 is definitely not a good year for me. But things would be better! (I hope) Well, finally, i got my layout back. Think tmrw im gonna enlarge it. Oh oh! Today had a literature seminar. Thought would be kindof boring. Hahaha, had fun throughout the whole day actually. And Ms Andrea is so crazy over Haresh Sharma. (He's the author of my literature book) Funny.

Fun time with friends like finding mac. Super relieve cuz weather is like killing us with the heat.

And i haven't even post pictures on monday's outing! :x

I wanna move out of my bloody house when I'm eighteen. But, can I.?

Sigh of relieve.

Finally, Midyear's over. It had been like hell for me. Guess i could take a few days break now... And i changed to the original skin cuz, first, idk how to change one, second, asking for help is so much trouble. LOL. Maybe some day i'll learn to do it.

As for now.. I dont really have anything to do. Sigh. And im hungry, just that i dont feel like eating. What's wrong with me?! Urgh, hell.

Let's run.

Life has been real tough for me. It's so hard to keep up. I want to escape from everything. Putting up with smiles and all everyday just because I don't want anyone to worry about me. It just sucks to the core when people don't appreciate it. I'm so tired of life. I'm tired of everything. But I can't leave everything behind and go off. That would be unreasonable and dumb. Or maybe, I should stop torturing myself already. If there were anymore damages done to me, I don't think I'll be able to handle it. But what can I do, I created this mess afterall. God, can I just shut myself off from this world?